I recently ordered a favourite childhood book from Chapters. One of my favourite smells is the the smell when you walk into a bookstore, especially one filled with new books. For last christmas and my seventeenth birthday I got bookstore gift cards because I had always loved books growing up and that’s what I got every year then, so why not now, too? However I went through about two years where I wasn’t interested in books very much at all. But now I’m back! I feel as I have reconnected with an old piece of myself that I forgot about but has remained true throughout all the changes I’ve been experiencing. Although I can keep up with Clive Cussler and Dan Brown with the best of them, my love remains with stories directed towards teens and preteens. Easy stories, but stock-full of imagination and magic. I won’t be sorry for it.
Personal Addition #31
I skip a lot. I think online classes might have been a better choice for me. Or living closer to the school. Or later classes. Really, I think this year and the mistakes I have made are learning opportunities. But I said that last year, too. So I don’t know.
Personal Addition #30
We as friends are all being separated but I couldn’t be more calm about it. Not many people I know are going to the U of M but I am excited about the ones that are: Shayla, Chris.. Some I am glad are going to the U of W, I need some space from them. I am looking forward to the change that university offers.
Personal Addition #29
I trusted a friend of a friend who is a tailor with my grad dress to fix a few things. After a couple of weeks I found out she hadn’t bothered to tailor my dress at all. My friend who recommended her offered to take responsibility and to take it to a shop and pay for it but I am tired of things being out of my control. I just want it back. I regret buying a grad dress at all, I just wish I didn’t have to go to convocation at all but my family would murder me if I didn’t. I am also going because even though I don’t necessarily want to do it now, I might regret it later. So as a net, I am going, but I won’t like it.
Personal Addition #28
My aunt has invited me over to dinner to talk about the finer details of me moving in them. When I was in grade eleven, both my aunts offered to let me move in with them, and I chose Aunt Karen because she is five minutes from my University, the U of M. They are hopefully going to reconstruct the basement for my use and have very few rules. Whoo.
Personal Addition #27
Do these even get read? Are these even for marks? In that case, a relationship with a once close friend has completely fallen apart and I find myself confused and sad. At the beginning, I thought it was made to be. We had unusual things in common, we were on the same level intellectually, blah blah blah. But as it progressed they drew farther and farther away from me as I grew closer to them. Eventually we confronted the fact that we wanted different kinds of friendships. Because of the trials and emotional ups and downs with this person, I have grown, and while it is true that I have to work on faults of mine I also realized that I am worth much more than I used to allow myself to be. I found that I wanted to deserve better than what I was being given, and that it is okay to be the way I am. Just because one person is not agreeable does not mean that I am totally in the wrong. I am grateful to this person for indirectly making me realize these things and I am terribly sad that we are not as close as we were, but another lesson I am currently learning is that it is okay for two people to grow apart, and that there needs to come a time where I let go of them. So, goodbye.
Personal Addition #26
A friend of mine had a birthday yesterday, and I did go a little overboard in celebrating it. My mistake was celebrating his birthday they way I wanted, not the way he wanted. It took me a while to accept that what I wanted wasn’t better just because I thought it was a little more festive than the way he would want. However, he did seem to be incredibly happy with what I did, so what does that say? I’m stuck between being true to myself and putting others before me. Where is the fine line?
Personal Addition #25
My birthday was a little bit over two weeks ago and I am not sure about how I feel turning eighteen. There’s a little of me that feels the loss of my childhood. But I think that you should appreciate the moment in time where you are now, and going back and trying to relive those moments wouldn’t result in anything more positive than what I know now. I think because they were fleeting made them good.
Personal Addition #24
Hello? I’d like to reflect on the story that I wrote for the english assignment. When I heard that it needed ‘character development’ I immediately thought of all that I had gone through this semester and how it has changed me. So instead of doing the story on a country girl moving to New York, which I was originally going to do (and which wasn’t very original at all), I spun my imagination on some personal events.
Personal Addition # 23
My mother and sister are moving to Portage La Prairie, while I am staying in Winnipeg. It’s something to get used to since I am the one supposed to be moving out, but am not. They are. However, I am technically ‘moving’ to the camp at which I am going to be staff since I signed up for every week, so I don’t have much time to come to terms with my mother and sister’s relocation. I am very excited to go, and cannot wait to begin packing.
darien james 